Definition
Yes, that’s a thing! These are the ones that have been affected by Covid-19, whereby you’ve either been drawn closer or pulled apart.
Raison d’etre
I’m putting this out there because I know so many of you have been similarly afflicted and I wanted to share my experiences to give you some comfort; especially for where you can’t get closure!
Emotional Processing
I also wanted to make myself look closely at what this has triggered within me, why it has caused emotional upset and work through it; writing does this for me.
Sharp Focus
The imposed separation and subsequent, continuous restrictions upon our personal freedom have really forced us to shine a light onto those we keep around us. Are we matching in values or polar extremes? Making us really determine and select those for whom the risks are worth taking.
End of Status Quo
Just the way we are choosing to view this event/crisis is enough to create a divide, so enormous there are no paths back. Is this a conspiracy designed to camouflage enforced totalitarianism? Is this a natural phenomenon, mother nature’s rebalance? How seriously should I take this? Is the end of the World nigh? The end of our friendship certainly is!
Emotive Warfare
And, because this drama is being projected in fear, we’re being attacked in our achilles heels, that is why it’s affecting us so deeply. A lot of us can’t over look how people around us are responding, it’s too important because it will directly affect us….apparently….and none of us can remain on the fence.
Death on Your Hands
That’s the main concern being bandied around isn’t it? My Mother keeps telling me I don’t want her death on my hands, which obviously I don’t, but is there really that much of a risk? People tell me they don’t want to risk the lives of their elderly parents either, which on the face of it makes perfect sense, but again, is this really the case?
Questioning the “Facts”
Because we now live in this joined up world, the culprit for the rapid spread of this worldwide pandemic on the dark side, the light side means that information is also flowing freely (until it gets taken down, which one must question the need for if it is not based in fact). Every cloud! Literally!
The Truth always Outs
Gone are the days when things could be hidden under a media blanket, or D Notice. What’s killing us on one hand, all this exposure to technology, is also freeing us at the same time. All these silver clouds! I have been privy to heaps of trustworthy information supporting the fact that dark shit is trying its level best to continue but no longer can. Anything that’s being attacked always screams loudly, behind anger always lurks fear.
Open not Broken
How come? Because I am open to what else is happening, I see life in 3D, mind, body, spirit. I look beyond the end of my own nose and am not over run by fear, possibly because I knew this was coming and or possibly because I am not scared of death. It’s not the end!
Lots of Experience
And people just love to level that because I haven’t personally had this virus, I don’t know what I am talking about. Well, just because I haven’t had this doesn’t mean that I don’t know what prolonged suffering and ill health looks like. I’ve got an underlying genetic disease, which has been and can be very debilitating and will continue and worsen for the rest of my life. So I pretty much feel like I have a PHD in shit health.
Cycle of Change
Everything has to end in order to begin again, this is the rhythm of life covering every living thing on this planet. How many of us can really believe we’re all living our best lives?
Train wreck
So many of us are spiritually divorced from our own souls and out of tune with the natural world, which we are devastating at an untenable rate.
Superior to Whom?
We may have the capacity for intelligence, but whose to say all the rest of the species don’t, there is far too much we still don’t get or appreciate. Nothing is black and white, the subtle nuances are where the magic happens.
Where’s the Fine Line?
Cos there’s always one isn’t there, just over there next to the silver clouds, high lighted by the rainbow. It’s not for me to tell you where to point your moral compass, that’s for you to work out. Or get you to open your mind and your third eye, to really see.
Adios Amiga
I’ve lost one close friendship in all of this, I thought we were completely aligned, turns out we’re not. I can’t get closure, I have been ghosted, which is beyond ironic. All I can presume is its down to this major difference in how we’re seeing this pandemic. There isn’t anything else that I can think of and believe me, I’ve looked.
Surprising Behaviour
I don’t like it when this sort of thing happens, I always expect this kind of friendship behaviour to exist in the playgrounds of yesteryear, not in my adult life. However, as I’ve said above, these are unprecedented, emotive times. The differences cannot and will not be tolerated clearly.
Choosing my response
It’s now down to how I choose to continue to feel about this hurtful slight. Do I let it eat me alive from the inside out with insecurity about who I am and what I stand for? Or, do I choose to believe in me, trust my instincts and leave the blame with the difference in our belief systems. Leaving with love and forgiveness and my middle finger raised. (that is a joke)
